Weather Report

I don't have much to say, but I know people check here for updates and I feel like it's been long enough since I posted that at this point something is better than nothing. So here's something which is only barely better than nothing.

The basic gist of things is that there are storm clouds all around my head lately, and wasps swarming inside of it, and concrete on my feet and in my eyelashes. It's been this way for about 2 or 3 weeks now. Things sometimes clear up for a few hours, but once the clouds roll back in it's hard to get anything done. Also I hate writing blog posts when I feel this way, because I always think they sound over-dramatic and ridiculous.

Objectively, my life is pretty decent. This is a fact. But these things start slowly and then take on a life of their own. It seems like sometimes my brain sets the stage, circumstances provide a little push, and that's all it takes to get the ball rolling. Like when you wake up in the morning and some big stupid thing happens, like you drop an iron on your foot, and then you're pissed, and then everything that happens after that is colored by the fact that you dropped an iron on your foot, and then you're just a mud puddle or a missed bus away from throwing a shit fit in your favorite deli because they don't have the bread you like. Except in my case the dropped iron is a family problem I can't really talk about, and the minor annoyances are perceived rejections and insults from various friends and loved ones, and the shit fit I'm throwing is a lot of sleeping and eating and watching Criminal Minds re-runs.

So I don't know what my point is. I guess just to say that I'm still here and I think of you often, but you're better off that you don't have to read nonsense like this every day. Eventually the clouds will roll out or whatever they do, and I'll be back to posting photos of my running shoes. I'm thinking of buying a new pair, and you'll be the first to know.