February! The Month of Love and Black History!

As you may recall, last month I made a few goals for myself in the spirit of... January. But now, January is over! The time for reckoning has come!

So, how did I do on my goals? The answer is: AWESOME. Goal #1 was to exercise 3 times a week. Technically, I did not adhere to this goal perfectly, because last week everything sort of fell apart and I only exercised once. But I think that exercising 3 times a week for 3 weeks and then once on the fourth week is just fine, thankyouverymuch, and also a big improvement over exercising none times per week for like, 25 weeks.

Goal #2 was to do homework for at least 30 minutes every weekday. I didn't keep track of this goal as well as the exercising one, but I'm pretty sure my follow-through was good, because I'm not behind in anything yet. I don't know if I mentioned, but the reason I had to make this goal in the first place is because mid-way through last semester, this became my nightly routine:

Hmmm, do I have anything due tomorrow?

If No, then: Hours upon hours of internet time-wasting!
If Yes, then: Panicpanicpanicpanic, workworkwork, til 4 am!

...I got good grades in all my classes, but I have a feeling it wasn't good for my mental health.

Now that I think about it, that goal started to fall apart sometime last week, too, and I think the reason for last week's total failure at productivity happened because North Carolina got it's once-yearly snow and I was snowed in all weekend watching TV and taking naps instead of exercising or doing homework. So as long as there isn't ever any um... weather, in the future, then I should have no problem eventually taking over the world!

Anyway, now that February is here, it's time to make additional goals. Since January's goals went so well, I'm going to unofficially carry those over for this month. In addition, my official goal for February is... (drum roll please)...

Not to criticize myself or other people. (Unless it's to their face. Or it will somehow accomplish something.)

The impetus behind this goal is that I've noticed that a large percentage of the words that come out of my mouth are devoted to either a) criticizing myself or b) bitching about other people. I have no doubt that both of these things can serve their purpose from time to time, but I don't like the fact that I spend so much time spouting negativity just for its own sake. Surely I have more important things to say, no? It's time to give those other thoughts an opportunity to breathe. Besides, I talk too much anyway.

Also, whenever I say something negative about someone, the next time I see them I am CONVINCED that they know and they hate me, and then I feel really anxious and kind of like I should apologize for something that there's no way they could know about. And I figure that in the long run it'll be easier to just change my behavior than try to untangle that mess of Crazy-Logic.

It's only 3 days into February, and this goal is already a little more difficult than I expected. Who knew I was so devoted to shit-talking? Nevertheless, I shall persevere, and by the end of the month I won't even be capable of thinking negative things!

.... Or at least, I'll learn to say them only in tinfoil-lined rooms, so that the satellites can't hear me and rat me out.