Living With No Regrets

Since I was such a huge internet crybaby when Lee and I broke up, I feel obligated to notify the internet now that we're, um... back together? This is great news, of course, but it also makes me feel a little embarrassed and silly to have to announce it, because you can break up with someone and get away with not explaining why, but it's a little harder to break up and then get back together without offering an explanation. At least, that's how it feels to me. Why am I compelled to explain myself? Who knows! Just join me, won't you?

While it's great news(!) that we're back together, Lee graduates in May, at which point he will permanently relocate to Texas in order to get started on his goal of becoming a Big Deal. (Or a Republican, I'm not sure.) Although Texas is kind of a stupid state in general, that in and of itself is not a huge problem. I'm sure a person can learn to love Texas, in the same way that a child learns to love her crazy uncle who is constantly preparing for the apocalypse. The main issue here is the fact that I have recently started a PhD program, and I have approximately four (4) years of graduate school left after Lee moves. Four years of graduate school that must be completed at my university here in North Carolina. Which is roughly 1,000 miles away from Houston. A $400 plane ticket away. Thirteen hours by car, one way.

I know what you're probably thinking right now. This level of long-distance relating is impossible. This is a disaster. We're fools. I know you're thinking it because I've thought all of it myself, as has Lee. It's why we broke up. But the fact remains that life, while livable, just doesn't feel right when we're not together. And I can't seem to get behind the idea of ending a relationship with someone you love when there's still a chance it could work out. There are plenty of stories of couples who carry on in extremely long-distance relationships and manage to make it work and live happily ever after (whatever that means) in spite of it all. Of course, there's also a huge chance that we will crash and burn and it will be quite a spectacle. Either way, it should make for some interesting blog reading, I guess. And either way we're going to go down fighting, with no regrets. Because if there's anything I think it's worth being a fool for, it's this.

So that's that. What's up with you?